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Choose to fight or continue watching TV and porn, waiting to die

November 14, 2017

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Life is tough but what’s the alternative? Continue watching TV and porn, playing video games just waiting to die? Nah. Screw that.

“The sickness”

Let me guess: you finally grew up and became an adult only to realise that life wasn’t meant to be this difficult. No, not really. You had it “all figured out” too. Right?

Can I have another guess?

I bet you were that person that used to navigate life with a sense purpose. Your younger self might have even had that cocky swagger about him or her.

You were that guy (or gal) that walked and talked as if they knew where they were going (in life) – at least that’s how you came across to the rest of us. To be honest, you still do. Except, deep down, you know the real truth. That is, you’re equally just as lost as the rest of us.

To add to the monumental frustration which you’re obviously desperately trying to hide because, to acknowledge that you need some help, let alone dare ask for it somehow mean that you’re a weak and pathetic human being.

Does it hurt not being able to figure out where it all began to go wrong ? Damn! I guess you fell off.

Funnily enough, you didn’t realise it was actually this bad. Hell, you’re still in denial about it. Even right now. As you’re reading this. Your mind is fighting to convince you that it really isn’t all that bad! It’s reminding you of a few good memories. You know…of those times where you were absolutely smashing it in life just to keep you sweet (keeping in mind that these are memories from a few years ago- wtf have you actually recently accomplished that’s worth being proud of?)

In that moment of trickery by your mind, your dopamine activity increases and you start to feel good about yourself again. So good that you conclude (justify) that you deserve some sort of reward. So what do you do? You play some video games or watch the TV.

Somewhere in your mind, you rationalise your actions; maybe even jerk off, and then go to bed. You wake up the following day and now you find yourself going through the exact same bullshit once again. You wake up, go to your dead-end job which you know will not take you closer to whatever ambition you’ve managed to convince yourself is worth chasing or you go ahead and do whatever it is you do during the day to kill time, and then when you’re all alone with your thoughts, the cycle of self-abuse continues.

You were not expecting any of this at all. This wasn’t what you saw in your future.

No, not really.

Growing up, you were Teflon Don.

Not on the same level as Donald Trump, but you still did and said what you wanted and you felt bulletproof.

You were your own person. You felt ready and welcomed any challenge but now? You’re lowkey feeling underprepared as you finally start to realise that maybe “winging it” simply won’t cut it anymore but obviously, your insecurities, ego or whatever the hell it is you choose to call it won’t allow you to admit this.

Now that you’re 20 something years old, you’re finally starting to gain an intense realism of your world.

You find yourself stuck in a vicious cycle trying to keep yourself together. It’s only now that it resonates well with you that you’re a few dead-end jobs away from your internal world crumbling.

The funny thing is, people like us are not stupid or dumb.

We knew there would be some challenges along the way- we’re not naive.

Most of us have been taught from young to “work hard because life is a constant struggle” except, we were not expecting it on this level. I mean come on, who can imagine this magnitude of shit-storm life has been scheming for us?

For example, I was precisely told by my dad that I would need to work twice as hard for my opportunities living here in this western society due to the colour of my skin!

I was already pre-conditioned to anticipate some difficulties. However, to be completely honest, I never truly understood the meaning of those words. No, not really. But I guess these things never really resonate with you until you’re older and you start to really experience some of these struggles on a more personal level but, here’s something positive: the only way to survive and conquer your obstacles is to develop a “Gorilla Mindset”. (Shout out to Mike Cernovich)

Take this from me

I completely understand and appreciate your pains, aches and frustrations.

It’s an arduous process and I know EXACTLY how you feel. That empty feeling on the inside. Or that one where you feel so lost and uncertain about your future that you just keep going around in circles with a fake smile even though you just feel so engulfed and weighed down by it all. Trust me. These are familiar territory.

I can finally say that I truly understand how difficult life can really be. Of course, it’s all relative, and I’m not even the type to compare struggles. But, I want you to know that just like you, I’ve also been in those situations where I was searching for answers because I was lost. I’ve been there.

Thankfully, I’ve been able to gain some perspectives along the way and that’s exactly what I want to offer today: perspective.

“The medicine”

We’ve already established the fact that life can be inexplicably difficult but, what you need to understand is that you’re not going to wake up one day and all your problems have miraculously worked themselves out.

More importantly, you need to stop consuming all these empty calorie ‘5-step guides to success and happiness’ as well as these bullshit quotes you find online that lacks real substance- They will not fix your problems! Also, all these articles telling you to just love yourself, think positive thoughts, “fake it will you make it” and everything will come together is a bunch of lies!

“Every day will be hard but what’s the alternative? Watching internet porn and playing video games and watching TV and waiting to die? That really isn’t my way of living”.

The above is a direct quote that I borrowed from one of my mentors, Mike Cernovich.

Let me make this clear: I have no direct relationship with this man, nor have I ever made contact with him. I referenced him as one of my mentors because he has literally given away the “blueprint” which I draw from occasionally and the best quality about them (other than the value they provide) is the fact that they’ve been given away free of charge!

Mike has published well over 1000 posts on his notoriously renowned website (Danger & Play) on the topic of mindset and mental toughness. Something I am obviously an advocate of. Afterall, that’s the essence of STRENGTH with SUBSTANCE. And, I came across this beast of a man during my own search for personal growth.

I’m not even sure if the likes of Mike Cernovich & Gary Vaynerchuck truly understand beyond the superficial their level of impact in helping to shape and improve lives. They have surely solidified their places in history and with regards to Mike Cernovich, I can genuinely say that some of his teachings have helped substantially over the years. I’m confident that some of his advice would surely help you too.

Why Mike Cernovich?

I think I gravitated towards Cernovich because we share a lot of similarities.

Apart from him being an older gentleman, we communicate in the same language; we both grew up dirt poor so I can definitely relate to his story as well as his personal struggles as a teenager; we both also have a background working in law (although I feel that it’s arrogant for me to even compare myself to him in this regard especially since he’s a qualified and licensed litigator and I decided to quit law and pivot into a new direction only after 2-3 years of practicing) and finally, him and I fundamentally share a similar mindset, to an extent where I sometimes feel conflicted because some of our content is quite similar and I don’t want to be accused of plagiarism. Please know that nothing was done maliciously.

“The cure”

Okay so, this blog has done well in outlining some of the challenges you might be facing at the moment so I’m going to give you some solutions.

However, I feel like Mike Cernovich can better articulate “the cure” so to speak and as such, I direct your attention to one of his most valuable podcasts below which I’ve listened to more times than I can actually count!

It’s titled “it never gets easier, but it does get better”. Very appropriate for this discussion.

It’s worth mentioning that this podcast will let you embrace your nightmares- they will keep you in check of your reality and let you appreciate them more. Enjoy! #EvolveOrDie!

Don’t forget where you found this article and remember to like, comment and share it! #BeSafeTho

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